Friday, December 28, 2012

"A New Year - A New Me"





 

It is 6:46 am, on the last Friday of 2012 and I sit here pondering what the New Year has in store. We survived the end of the Mayan Calendar. We survived another crazy election year with the outcome a bit disappointing, well at least that is of my own personal opinion that you do not have to agree with. We've seen countless acts of hate and violence over this year and now are for warned of a looming uncertainty of a fiscal cliff hanging over our heads. I think that with all this year has brought forth in our lives both in the world and personally, I can almost say I am feeling numb. As many of you know, I was on a quest to organize myself by the year 2013. I think I would be secure in saying that I accomplished only 70% of that goal, but something happened to me as I held myself publicly accountable for my disorganized ways and has me moving forward in a positive way.

Swallowing my pride, I found myself a therapist and having been going since July of this year - It was the best damn thing I have ever done for myself.  I found out that I have been a survivor of a sexual assault that happened in Adak, Alaska when I was active duty military, that I chose to hold captive in my mind for 21 years and holds the keys to acceptable reasons why I am a sporadic cluttered mess, among other things. I wish I had all the answers, but I am told that the process comes in three phases and I am just beginning phase two, which I am told is not a picnic. I've learned what triggers are, how they can greatly affect a person, and how to deal with whatever emotions stem from things that trigger me.  It can be a sound, smell, a place, a person, any number of things can be a trigger that generates the painful memory of what took place and that can alter a person and cause extreme behaviors. I am still on the denial train that I had been such a difficult person to deal with on occasion, but looking back on the last twenty years, I will take responsibility and say - yes I was over reactive, untrusting, controlling, fearful on so many levels that it even altered my work habits. I found myself on the verge of being a hoarder and scared to open up completely with anyone - including my family. (No more secrets…now you know why I did what I did, but I am not asking for your pity. It is what it is and I can’t change it, and I am at peace that people now have the information to offer some type of explanation.) There have been many friendships that have been destroyed because of my ways, and other friendships have fallen to the wayside because people didn't understand why I would react the way that I do with their negative comments that were “a joke” in their eyes. (Some joke. Never mess with a couple’s relationship nothing good can come from it.)

I guess I would say that I am taking a stand and confronting my stress disorder by making you all aware of what people could be going through and you may never know. I used to fake a smile and laugh, as I fear being judged if I showed you how much I was hurting. I hid my tears as I feared it would show my weakness and how venerable I really was. I loved so much that it pushed people away and I enjoy attention in a positive way, even if it appears that I don’t.  I like to consume myself with my art work as that is my therapy when I'm not sitting in a room spilling my problems to a person once a week (who I trust) who can remain neutral.

My New Year’s resolution is to resume on a positive path that I am building. I will continue to keep the weight off and steer clear of negative forces that try to shake me up. I am asking for your understanding and support as I journey deeper into the memories that have been safeguarded in my mind. That there could be days where happiness may not find me or that I may not want to smile, but if you wish to share one with me, I would be very grateful, even though you may not feel that I am.  I am just coming to the understanding that I have been kicking the can of denial and not only did it hurt me and alter me; it hurt many others along the way. So it's one day at a time, focusing on the three most important men in my life - My husband, who has stuck with me, when I would have left my ass years ago, and my two sons that are only just learning that mom really knows how to laugh and have fun. To my family and friends - thanks for hanging in there with me when times got crazy. I'm going to keep on with my writing and my quest to become 100% organized. I know I must be getting better as I was able to keep up with the orders on my web page for ornaments, which I haven't a clue how I did it. I painted over 1,000 ornaments and got them in the mail on time. I am stumped, but it did keep me from keeping up with my blog, which is something I also promise to be better attentive towards in the New Year. 


Many thanks to my continued readers even thought I have not kept up with my blog as I had hoped for the holiday seasons.  It is because of you the readers that I find the ability to bring my words and stories to the paper to share. I want to wish all of you and all the people of the world a very Happy, Healthy and Safe New Year. Let’s do our best to try to instill Peace on Earth and good will towards all. Until next time – Blog Ya Later Alligator!


A song that I remembered when I was a young girl in 1977 - When times were simple. Still brings a smile to my face. Enjoy.  (It's just another New Year's Eve)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3wSP59NjoIY

 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

"A Soldier's Night Before Christmas"

 


 

Well hello my loyal readers, and to my newest readers. Hope my words find you with a smile on this fine Tuesday morning. Course for some of you, your time zone could be ahead of me or behind me, but welcome just the same. I wanted to share with you a quick story about an observation and why I feel that if we could all just hold within us, just an ounce of compassion, life could be ever so much easier. After what I saw yesterday, I realized that there are people in this world that need this true life lesson.

I had been sitting in a patient waiting area in the Walter Reed National Medical Center, waiting for my appointment in the Dental Clinic, watching people walking by as they make their way to and from the various clinics on the floor that I was on. I noticed that all of them wore the same look of frustration, stone cold, anger, and some even tried to wear a painted smile to conceal the sorrow that consumed the rest of their body. It was obvious that people were not happy, until I heard the sounds of little feet running. I saw a mother and her young son making their way to the same clinic check-in desk that I had just been standing at. I never noticed her husband that was with her until he rolled up to the counter in his motorized wheelchair. My thoughts paid no mind to his disability, but what did catch me was the dozens of people who walked by wearing a frown with the exception of his sweet son, who was probably no more than two, and his father’s face that wore a genuine smile. It was when he turned his chair around that I noticed that the jacket that he had to conceal his legs had slid off revealing the extreme redness of recent scares of his double amputation and the loss of two fingers on his right hand. My mind pondered what he may have had to endure that the end result was this extreme, until I heard him tell the staff member at the desk he had recently been in the ongoing war overseas. I felt a rush of tears making their way onto the surface of my face that was soon turned into a smile after what he did next. His wife worked with the staff to get appointments that did not go as smoothly as she had hoped, but hung in there as their son became restless and was working on a bit of a crying fit. Without hesitation, her husband lifted his son up and placed in him in his lap, and then took him for a quick spin around the hospital on our floor. Both dad and son smiled and laughed as their wheels made a unique rhythm on the tiled floor as they wooshed by.

Wow, here is a father, a dad, a Soldier who has fought for our freedom and has suffered the loss of his limbs, and yet without missing a beat, reaches out to his wife to help her by entertaining his son, with laughter and smiles, while other onlookers displayed their disgust that their wish for library silence, had been broken by their sounds of joy. For me, their laughter helped me realize that no matter what we all may have endured in our lives; we never know the stories of others and what life is like for them. I wish citizens out there that feel that being negative and mean is the way life would realize - IT'S NOT!  We can't let the sorrow take hold of us and bring us to such a low, that we can't bring ourselves up.  We must rise up and move forward with love and happiness in our hearts and be blessed that we are still alive no matter what the challenges we have faced or the ones that await us. Life is too short.

As these feelings rushed over within me, a song began to ring out in my mind and touched my heart as if it were cradled in the palm of my husband’s hand being held ever so gently. “A Soldier's Night before Christmas," This is my husband’s favorite Christmas Song and it was this year when I really learned why it means so much to him. After all that I have learned this year about my Seabee Veteran, I look up at the heavens and thank god that he and his unit came home after their time in the Gulf War from 90-91. Like the song, they too had been Soldiers that had missed Christmas, with friends and family because of their duties as a United States Soldier, yet even thought they are home, there is a part of their souls that has been taken from them and remains overseas. I have never come face to face with the destruction of war or have been on the front line, but with all of his unit members who have been willing to share their personal stories of war, I have a better understanding and a deep seeded respect and appreciation of what, my husband, the soldier in the military hospital yesterday, and our men and woman in our armed forces go through when they come from war. I am thankful that at this time, my husband may not be in a wheelchair, or needs walking aids, but he still deals with pain both physically and other times mentally of his time during the war. I will never know everything about this man I love, and what he went through, but what I do know - I love him with all that I am and here for him no matter what.

 

 

Merry Christmas Ron & Merry Christmas to our military members and the families that wait patiently for their loved ones safe return home and to those who have come home and are trying to put the pieces of their lives back together as their family lovingly waits. This song I dedicate to all of you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdEFaOoSBsw



Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone

Happy Thanksgiving
 
 
 
Well, I guess I can say that my hopes to blog on a daily basis went right out the window, for the month of November, but on the flip, I am very thankful as my Internet ornament business is lifting off the ground and has kept me very occupied. With Halloween and all the wonderful stories and pictures that helped me create all kinds of fun things, it was rather easy to write on a daily basis, and I will be the first to admit. I miss it when I don't.  I have some fun ideas planned for Decembers blog, as well as the countdown day looms very close - "Organizing Stacey Bolin by 2013."  You'll never believe what happens in all of that quest and it is a story you won't soon forget. So hang in there, and I am sorry that my words were silent, I am just learning how to multi-task productively.  Below are some pictures of today's accomplishments and I am so very thankful that I have my husband and my boys to share my cooking talents with.
 
I hope that all of you have a wonderful Thanksgiving and wishing you luck in your quest to find that special holiday gift if you are considering going out on Black Friday.  May I suggest a place you can go look without leaving the comforts of home, - www.etsy.com and type in Ukandu in the space to find shops.  Until next time - Blog ya later.
 
My own bread/roll recipe. Still rising.

This was a butterball Fresh Young Turkey.
So moist you could squeeze the juice out of it when it was done.

One of four pans of rolls, however not all were just dinner rolls.


In our house, if you make dough, you make cinnamon rolls too.
 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

I'm so thankful - IT'S FINALLY FLIPPIN' ELECTION DAY!!!!!

This is one of many things I am thankful for this 6th day of November, 2012
 
I personally am thankful and looking forward to the silence of my telephone, no more endless knock, knock, knocking on my front door by strangers all begging for me to vote this way and that way, lawns littered with overwhemlimg adds stands trying to sway people and that the television will have different adds to play vs. why or why I shouldn't vote yes for question 4, 6, and 7. UGGH! However, I realized that when the election adds end - the holidays will be in full force, if they are not already, but have been sheltered by the weight of this years election in the USA. So I figured it was only right to put up this older post - Actually I thought, hell with it being election day - it was fitting. Hope everyone gets out and votes. My glass is raised to all of you as I say - here's to a day we've all dreamed of, the last day of the election madness for another four years, with all that remains - what will the voice of the people be and who will be out next president.

BANTER VS. HUNGER - What a morning!

You know it's going to be a long day, when you hear something on the radio and your instantly triggered with an opinion. Now, 5:05am, I'd rather think of better things like; Is it the weekend yet? Is it payday? What could I make good for dinner? Will my husband and son be working late on the job tonight? But this wasn't the case for today. I was triggered by a commercial about hunger in America., followed by the topic of the day for people to call in and voice their opinions, "How the presidential candidates have been paying thousands upon thousands of dollars to slam, slander, bash, and out point the other ones current and past faults and do Americans like this political banter or not." Now to know me is to know that I turn and run in the opposite direction on any topics that are politically charged, but this time I almost called in, but withheld doing so, as I work for the Radio station I was listening to.



Frankly, I was appalled to hear what people had to say. "REALLY FOLKS - THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS WAISTED SO EACH CANDIDATE CAN POINT FINGERS ABOUT EACH OTHERS RIGHTS AND WRONGS AND YOU SAY IT’S OK TO SPEND THIS KIND OF MONEY!" How about this idea if you want to be the President. If you truly want the job or better yet...my vote. Put the money you spend to bash one another to more important issues. A perfect example; feed the hungry we have in the USA! Take all that money and put it towards the deficit that keeps growing every day. Stop the idea of taxing people who can't afford to buy into this new health care - and why can't they? They have been on unemployment for god only knows how long and they have to make bigger decisions - do we pay the electric today or do we feed our children? I am very tired of this political bullshit. I am tired of seeing people struggle. It rips my heart out when I hear that people I know are losing their homes because their financial investments are gone because of the bad economy, that good people are making bad decisions out of fear, anguish, and depression. People who are facing a personal hell, no matter the reason, the people around them suffer too.

To either candidate - If you want to be an effective President, no matter who is elected, then be a leader who listens to All the people ALL of the time, not some of the people all of the time that will better your growing resume. Remember gentlemen. You have, and the people throughout this world have, children who are also going to be affected by future tomorrows, long after your time in office, by the choices each of you make today. Don't stand at your podiums and tell us what we want to hear, show us that you heard us. Actions speak louder than words. Show us that the constitution really means something and is not just on display in Washington DC to bring in tourists to generate revenue.

The words within our constitution have depth, meaning, and soul.


We the People of the United States, in Order to form a more perfect Union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.

What would our founding fathers think if they could see us now? How do you want to be remembered; for the way we once were, the way we are now, or the way we could be because someone dared to step outside the box and make a solid difference.

To my readers out there, again, this is merely my opinion. I’m not asking you to agree or disagree. I just found it to be so frustrating that callers were voicing their opinion why these endless high dollar election bash fest television ads are justified. All the while the commercial about how the family next door is privately starving stabs my thoughts like an endless beeping alarm clock without an off switch. Who knows maybe it was intentional to get people thinking, like the way it took hold of me. Before the radio came on, I pondered, maybe I’ll go back to bed. Now I sit wanting to vent as I just can’t seem to wrapped my head around the fact that it seems that priorities different across the board in the world of today vs. the world of yesterday.

Here’s hoping that the struggles that each of you may be facing, are met with strength, courage, and know that you are not alone. That one day the future will be so bright – We’ll all have to wear shades.

Thanks for joining me today and as always –Blog ya later.

(Wow I didn't think this blog would generate so many emails in a positive light, in less than an hour. Many thanks)

Inspirational Song for the day.

Monday, November 5, 2012

A MUST TRY!!!!


For a chocolate version, substitute 3/4 pound bittersweet chocolate (either in small chips or chopped from a small block) for the prunes and raisin.

Martha Stewart Living, September 2012
  • Prep Time 30 minutes
  • Total Time 4 hours 30 minutes
  • Yield Serves 6 to 8
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Ingredients

  • 3 large eggs
  • 1 large egg yolk
  • 1 cup sugar
  • 1 tablespoon pure vanilla extract
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 2 cups half-and-half
  • 1 cup whole milk
  • 4 or 5 day-old plain bagels, crusts removed and cut into 1/2-inch cubes (8 cups)
  • Unsalted butter, for baking dish
  • 1 1/4 cups halved pitted prunes (8 1/2 ounces)
  • 3/4 cup seedless raisins (3 1/2 ounces)
  • Vanilla ice cream, for serving

Directions

  1. Whisk together eggs, egg yolk, sugar, vanilla, and cinnamon in a large bowl until smooth. Whisk in half-and-half and milk. Add bagel cubes, and toss to coat. Let mixture sit, stirring occasionally, until bread absorbs some of the liquid, about 1 hour.
  2. Preheat oven to 325 degrees. Butter an 8-inch square baking dish (2 inches deep). Stir prunes and raisins into bagel mixture, and transfer to dish. Bake until top is golden brown and a toothpick inserted in center comes out clean, about 1 hour (if top browns too quickly, tent with foil). Let cool completely on a wire rack. Cut into squares, and serve with ice cream.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

"BABY! LET'S TALK TURKEY - GOBBLE GOBBLE!


 
 
"Let's Talk Turkey and Then Some"
and of course it wouldn't be a blog without a song that inspired me:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NSQLMPUK-8&feature=related

Phew! We got through the month of October without to many scratches, and it looks to be a November heading in a positive direction. Ornament sales have increased, and I am slated to begin selling at the Navy exchange here in Annapolis, in addition to my Etsy web page:  
 

I have wanted to sell my ornaments in the exchange for years, yet I only let myself dream off doing so, course if you could see the very first one I made, there is one word to describe them - ick! So ten years later, I think I have gotten much better at painting my frosty friends, but I don't just paint snowman, I can paint anything sent my way - Just remind me to store them in a safe place as I broke a set of ornaments that had painted pictures of their hot rod cars on them. I'm actually working on the new ones. I also design snowflakes with glitter dust on them. So check out the website, I have more designs to add to my inventory.
So, This year I somehow found my inner strength to make my wishes come true. I also found my inner happiness that had been sort of misplaced for many years. In my eclectic mind I was under the belief that people were out to hurt my family emotionally - with the primary target being myself, Then some strange feeling took hold of me and made me realize that by building ones thoughts on a foundation of positive thinking, you can crush anything negative that comes your way. WAA WHOO! It worked!

The more I found my ability to remain positive, the more I find my face carrying a smile and a pleasant voice that wants to say - Hello - to the other faces in the world. But you know what the best feeling is? My icy heart has melted and I am starting to feel like the outgoing person I was when my husband and I first met. It's like the spontaneous, outgoing, wacky woman that I was has finally been released from the prison in my mind and put back into the world. Stacey Negative is taking a long sabbatical, I hope - never to return again.

With this new thinking, I have more goals for myself that are obtainable. Since I had so much fun with the October blog, why not try it again. My hopes for November will involve all of you. I'd love to have this month’s blog be filled with photos of family thanksgivings you remember, special thanksgiving stories and we must not forget...all those extra special - grandma touches - type of recipes. I know you have them so why not be a dear and share them with the rest of us. If you have made the recipes that you send me, be sure to take your best photo of it or with it, it's up to you.

So until tomorrow, I'm going to bed tonight dreaming about what delicious recipes we are going to get to try, and looking forward to all the stories of family, funtimes, and what you are thankful for this Thanksgiving Holiday season.  Blog ya later.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

"Halloween Past & Present" - BE SAFE!


HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!

It’s finally here and I can’t wait to share a bit of Halloween that has been a part of me for many years. It’s creepy and for some reason just sticks in my head.  Also, below are some pictures of Halloweens past of my family and I. Have a wonderful and Safe evening and thanks so much for all your emails, Keep them coming  and I'll keep the blogs a going – the holiday seasons have only just begun and there is so much more to write about.

It's not halloween without this little giggle by
Silver Shamrock.
 
and we must not forget this unforgettable theme:
 
 

 
 
Me as Dolly Parton in 1987

Reese as a Motor Cross Guy in 2005

Ryan (Oldest) as Captain Hook - 2005

Me as a Ghostyly Ghoul

Made this skunk costume for my younger son
in 1995


Dang - I really got a ROCK!

The mother load 2011

McSpooky in our window
Halloween Decorations this year 2012

My favorite blow up.



Our kids - what wonderful ghouls

Mr and Mrs. McGhoul

Creepy Clown - Reese 2011

My Cowboy as a - Cowboy. *Wink*

Inflatable Spooky Bat Flying Globe.

My Giddy-Up little darlin costume - Accessories not included.
Our youngest going as a a Military Guy 2012

Our Oldest, tending the fire as the little Trick-or-Treaters
get ready to come to the house tonight - 2012

He decided to add his military backpack to
get the effect.

My homemade Devils Food Black Forest Cupcakes w/
cinnamon cherry filling with a dollop of real whipped cream
and sprinkled with dark chocolate shavings.
 

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

"Mystery of the Harvest Moon" - By Stacey Bolin (Spooky story original)


Do you know how many days until Halloween????
 
 

 
"Mystery of the Harvest Moon"
Written By: Stacey L. Bolin
copyright: 10/27/2012 all rights reserved
Music accompanyment by:
Michael Donner "Disease"

A golden full moon rose higher and higher in the night sky, casting a shadowy light on the dirt road that cut straight through the vast treeless prairie land of Wyoming. Nature’s symphony of Coyotes, crickets, and toads, added the melody, which would otherwise be a land of silence. In the distance headlights of a vehicle grew larger and larger that was accompanied by the graceful music of Ella Fitzgerald singing blue moon. A Jack rabbit jumped from out of the tall grass, into the road, and was met by the tread of an old 1951 Ford F150 truck that picked it up like a football, tossed its lifeless body aside along with the rocks and dust that trailed behind, to fall where it may.

Randall A. Wolfe was in a hurry to get home on his way back from getting supplies for the farm in town. The farm had been his pride and joy and he was very proud that he had achieved the ability of keeping this farm from going into bankruptcy and being foreclosed upon as this was a place that had been in his family for many years and where he grew up as a boy. It had become a family tradition to pass the skills and the farm to the next born son in the family on their 21st birthday - something that he wished his son, Russell would warm up to, but since hearing the story of “The Harvest Moon,” that had been told by his grandfather Harold A. Wolfe, every year at Halloween, Randall’s son, Russell A. Wolfe, vowed he’d never resume the duties as those before him had done.

As Randall, pulled up the auto gate of his farm and got out of his truck to retrieve his mail, he looked up at the archway and smiled knowing that it was his father and grandfather that had created such a wrought iron beauty that had been adorned with a Circle in the center representing a full moon, with the families last to the left and the name of their farm – Full Moon Ranch, on the right. On the polls that held the arch in place, were various designs of western art that was a collaboration of two coyotes howling at the moon, horse shoes, and sunflowers as a mirror image on both sides.  It was fitting, especially on a night like tonight and the meaning behind their creation. As he stood there, it dawned on him – the story, it was the story of the moon that was the reason why his son wanted nothing to do with owning the farm, but maybe it would be his son’s fiancée’ that would help him change his mind as he knew tonight his son was going to propose to his girlfriend – yet he could only hope that this relationship would not turn out like the last girl he was with.

***

A bone chilling wind raced through the night air, as Lillian and Russell sat snuggled together wrapped in a quilt enjoying the warmth of the bomb fire that crackled and snapped small embers into the air as the flames consumed the wooden fuel that they continue to place upon it. The moon had been displaced by a dense cloud cover that had loomed all day in the sky that threaten rain up their cozy night out together. This was to be the night that Russell would ask Lillian to marry him. They had been together for the five years and he had found that as he lived each day and night, it was the thought of her that made him smile. He had always felt a deep connection between them and he realized he wanted so much more. Yet something in the back of his mind kept holding his ability to pop the question. As they sat, Lillian was eager to learn more about her talk dark and handsome man.

“So Russ, I have to ask you a very personal question.” She said, hoping he would turn and look into her eyes passionately and whisper the answer in her ear.

He sat there in a strange daze as he watched the fire, never turning to her, and only replied, “OK?”

“Why is it that you don’t like a harvest moon?”

He immediately began to cough. He had been startled by this question. “He had never told anyone about his dislike for that particular event each year. There was no way anyone could know?” He thought.

“I just figured that over the past few years we have been together, we always talked about going out like were are right now, but you never want to go on one of the best nights – the night of the full moon. Each time I suggest going out on a beautiful fall night that is lit by a full moon you always avoided the topic – why?” she said in a tender voice.

“I don’t like to talk about!” He said, trying to hide his agitation.

“It can’t be that bad can it? I promise I won’t tell anyone – trust me.”

He pulled himself out from the blanket and crouched down closer to the fire to poke at it repeatedly with a stick, leaving her to sit by herself.

“Russell, did I say something wrong?”

“Lillian, I am just not feeling myself right now. Maybe we should just leave,” he replied in a deep monotone voice.

Her voice was innocent and kind and he knew she was of kind heart when she replied, “If that’s what you want. I’m sorry that I upset you.”

“I’m a brave person,” he said in blankness stare into the fire.

“Sure you are who said you weren’t?”

“Do you want to know what happened or not?” He sharply responded then made some sort of growling sound under his breath.

Startled by the way he snapped at her, she simply said, “Yes Russell I want to hear your story, I’m sorry I interrupted you, please go on.”

Russell had finally found the courage to tell Lillian why it was that he disliked the only night out of the year in October that the harvest moon fell upon. His story began as if he were trying to protect his credibility as a man only to reveal he was protecting so much more than that and Lillian was about to learn so much more about her man than she ever expected.

Russell tolerated snakes, spiders, and weird creatures that roam the prairie land after dark. He was certainly not afraid of heights or the dark, and he loved a great ghost story around a blazing campfire with his friends and family. I guess one could say that Russell could be labeled as a fearless person with one exception, his fear of a full harvest moon. The reasons behind his fears was because of an old legend told to him by his grandpa when he was a small boy. The legend was told every year just before Halloween, and always on the night of the harvest moon, weather the moon shone bright in the night sky or was sleeping behind a blanket of rain clouds – whatever the October date was on the calendar of the full moon, the story was told. He remembered sitting in the old farm house with family around the huge oak dinner table. All the candles would be lit and in copper sconces as a fire crackled hot in the fireplace. All The family, young and old, would gather round to hear grandpa’s traditional tale – “Mystery of the Harvest Moon.” After packing his pipe and then lighting it with a wooden match, he would lean back in his chair staring at the fire, puff a few rings from his pipe into the air and then would being his tale like this, “I recon it was early 1900’s or so. It was five local farmers and I, all doing our best to get our crops in off the grounds before the threat of an early winter storm was upon us. Last thing we wanted to do was to lose the crop. It was our life line, both for financial reasons and for  nourishment as this would be all that we had to get us through until the next harvest. Then men and I knew that it was never a good idea to be in the fields after dark during that time of year with all the hungry coyotes, wolves and occasional brown bear that were doing their best to fatten up as they prepared for their winter months too.” Then he took another drag from his pipe.

“I warned your grandfather that being out after dark, will bring nothing but trouble.” Grandma Nettie chimed in as she took a hot pumpkin pie out of the oven and placed it on the table to cool.

“Hush up old woman,” grandpa scowled, “This is my story tonight.”

“Then get on with it old man. Pies getting cold.” she said in a grandma’s unique way.

Grandpa went on with his story, in a raspy spooky voice, “We knew that we didn’t have much time to get the crops out of the field, as the full moon displayed two huge glowing rings around it and we all knew what that meant – snow.  We did our best with the tools that we had then, and against the wishes of the women folk, we worked into the night. Now being young men in our beginning twenties, who believed we knew it all, it was hard to convince us otherwise. As we worked hard cutting the crops and placing them in the wagons, we could hear the coyotes at the edge of the fields, howling at the moon and taking in the scent of human flesh dancing across an occasional wind that passed us. The horses began to get spooked, but still we continued to work until just about midnight. 

It was at about this time that I began to feel a bit agitated, itchy, and was met with a strange taste in my mouth. It was a peculiar sensation that I had never felt before and thought that I might have been touched with a sour stomach. I don’t recall how I got home from the fields that evening, but was feeling much better when I awoke the next morning. I went downstairs to a breakfast fit for a king and fresh coffee percolating. Your grandma had mentioned that she had been up half the night cleaning up my mess, which I assumed was from my sour stomach. It wasn’t until the sheriff knocked on our door I realized what the mess was that she was forced to clean. It was then I learned what had happened to the others who worked in the fields with me that night. The sheriff believed that the other men had been attacked by coyotes and or wolves. It was so hard to tell as there was nothing but pools of blood, scattered horse carcasses, and several drag marks that looked like it was made by human bodies. It was then I knew it was due to the horrific powers of the Harvest Moon. I had been told similar stories from my father and grandfather when I was a boy, and just thought it was an urban legend just to scare us before going out on all Hollow’s eve. It wasn’t until I found my pair of boots, which I had worn that night, covered in blood did I know what truly happened and that is why I tell the tale to warn all of you.”

“Oh Harold your scaring the kids. When are you going to learn that you are not responsible for what happened. You were trying to provide for your family and fell ill.” Grandma Nettie said in a stirred voice. “You keep telling this tale, and your farm will be doomed for certain.”

Russell never forgot the first time, or the last time, that his grandfather told of that story. How could he forget since the awing over the autogate was a constant reminder when he’d go home to the farm to visit with his father, like he had done just recently to tell him of his intentions to marry Miss Lillian.


“Wow, Russell, your story even scared me. I can understand why you are bothered by the moon and I am sorry that I kept trying to tell you that it was all in your imagination.” Lillian said with shame in her voice.

He never looked back at her as the clouds slowly began to dissipate in the sky.

“I guess I should also tell you that I did something I am not proud of and I hope that you can forgive me when I tell you this.”

“Go on.” Said Russell

“Well, you know those calendars I like to make with all the photos we take of the rocky mountains and places we have been throughout the mid-west together..well I changed when the full moon would fall in the month of October so that we could finally enjoy a night out together, and since there is no moon in the sky while we are in the valley tonight, I figured you would never notice.”

Russell remained knelt before the fire, poking it over and over again, until he said, “I understand, but what’s done is done.”

Feeling that she was in the clear and that he understood why she did what she did, Lillian decided to change the conversation quickly before he really had time to think about it.

“So, Russell, I couldn't help but noticed that all the men in your family have an A, for an initial. What does it stand for? Alan? Alex? Adam? What?”

“Aware,” he said with another growl in his tone while scratching at his back and arms continously.

“Aware? That’s different, what do you have to be aware of?” she commented with a bit of laughter in her voice.

Russell growled again as the moon broke through the clouds.  Russell’s eyes glowed in the moon light as he looked at Lillian with a snear and said as he eye teeth gleemed, “Not Aware - A WERE. You know as in - A WEREWOLF!”
 
***

The full moon was a blood red color in the sky as a shrilling howling type sound echoed across the valley, where their camp fire had been. His family secret was out again, and just like the last girl he had dated that questioned his fears of the Harvest Moon - Lillian now joined her.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Simple Scares that Turn Bad when the Lights go out.


 
2 Days until Halloween
Madam Widow - "Light of the Rose"
 
Blog post #1 of two - Later today my original story - "Mystery of the Harvest Moon" is set to make its debut. Lets hope Sandy keeps her distance and destruction away long enough to get this story to you.
 
 
With all the hype of "Frankenstorm Sandy" churning out in the Atlantic waiting for her moment to put her own Halloween scare on all of us in her path, and the rain that finally stopped threatening it was coming and showed up with its buddy "Mr. Wind" - we still had our last opening night for the Halloween Happening 2012. All the ghouls and all the volunteers waited in wonder -  would anyone venture out on a Sunday night with a major storm pending, or would they remain home to hunker down? In the two hours that we were open, only two dozen people ventured out for the closing night of our event.
It was a somber feeling that filled some of the volunteers; others were celebrating the joys it was over. For myself, I think I fit into the third group of people that found the ending to another year of Halloween fun, was now a feeling like a sense of loss and sad that it was over so soon. It happens, with all the hype, all the preparations that had been made to create scary scene after scary scene, both inside the Haunted Barn and for the Haunted Hay ride, all the running around to get this and fix that. You would have thought it was Christmas time. I get this same feeling of loss the day after Christmas. I guess like a major holiday, our event brings the same rush to get ready as the Holiday seasons do and just as quickly as it gets here – it’s gone.
So, now that the event is over, I wanted to take a moment to share a few pictures of what our tour looked like with the lights on.  They were simple scares that turn bad when the lights go out and the head ghouls yells - PLACES - Their coming in!
 
 















Madam Widow & Her Carriage Assistant (A.K.A. - The Hubby)

 
I do hope that everybody exercises extreme caution and stays safe as Hurrican Sandy makes her own Debut over the next several hours. You are in our thoughts and prays.
Until later today - I'll blog ya later.