WHAT A RUSH! PITCH FEST 2012

Hello everyone in Internet land. I am happy to report that I have return in one piece from my trip to Las Vegas to Pitch my book for executives in the movie and television industry. It was an experience of a life time. Over the three days I will share with you first hand, about my adventures as I explored the lay of the land, I will critique the event that I attended and the best part of the entire trip - how I got to touch a dream. I will be posting a three part story starting Friday March 30, 2012. Be sure to have your coffee and your favorite donut or muffin ready and join me as I share stories and photos of my wild adventure in the "City of Lights" - Las Vegas.

The Countdown Begins - Remember to Breath

T-Minus 7 days and counting

Here I sit, Thursday March 15, 2012. My emotions are like a kid waiting for Christmas to arrive. I wonder about the unknown.  Honestly - I am scared to death...shhhh don't tell anyone. My calendar says 7 more days until possibly another dream will come true - But will it? I wonder.  22 years I've waited, could this really happen? The day I began to write, I wanted my words to someday find their way to the silver screen or heck, LMN (Lifetime Movie Network) is fine with me. I don't know where this came from as I was not the writing type. If anything I was very quiet, shy, yes shy, and never had any big dreams to undertake something until the night that I dreamed of the Military man in the red van. When I found that military man and his red van, my life changed forever. I can only hope that he truly knows that all that I do, I do with him in my heart and soul. I try to express this to him, but my words never come out as breathtaking as they look in a Hallmark card or what you hear in a movie that is a love story. Then to think it was 20 years ago on March 24, that my husband and I decided to get married and set a date for May 6th, 1992, and now it is also the date of my meeting to pitch my story next week. Talk about under pressure (Isn't that a song sung by Queen?)....look out she's gonna blow! Ha Ha. But seriously, Having my story chosen to become a movie - that would be one heck of an anniversary gift. Don’t Cha think so?

There is no question that I am under some big time stress. I keep myself in check and keep telling myself say grounded, keep your head out of the clouds, and wear your lead balloon. Being that it was 20 years ago this time, I can’t help but reflect on how my husband and I got here. I found myself reminiscing while waiting in line today at the MVA, I even thought about what would have been if he had not chosen to marry me. How foolish I must have looked, when I started tearing up and had to catch my breath, while standing in line.  So I decided to tell people, who asked if I was ok, "I forgot my two forms of ID." Then I smiled and laughed and said, "I'm kidding, I've got allergy eyes." They all laughed. I know I will have to take my own advice – but will I? I’ll let you know soon enough. I just can’t believe that this moment will happen in 7 days and I need to take this all one day at a time. There is no need to panic…yet. I finally got myself an iPod shuffle to listen to my music to keep me calm all day long. It's funny, wearing this around the house to do house work and laundry, I feel like I am cleaning to my own personal soundtrack. I can see it now, "Stacey - The Movie" OMG! NOT! Ha Ha. I couldn’t help but laugh as I was trying to get rid of stink bugs; I need the song - Another One Bites the Dust. Smile.

Basically, with all this wonder, worry and anticipation of what lies ahead for my writing career, I haven’t been the greatest housewife. I’m a little behind with staying on task and I know that the kitchen floor is screaming for a scrub down. So, this blog will have to be short today.  I must get things done and stop falling into the daydreams and what if’s, and can only hope next weeks outcome it is what I’ve always dreamed of for myself and my family. I hope that whatever happens will be as glorious as the day when I found my military man. I would love to be able to stand before him and say; here is the deed to your family farm and that his 20 year dream will finally come true - We can go home now and live happily ever after. But if this isn’t the right time for dreams to become a reality, I won’t stop until it is.

My New 2-sided Business Cards. They did a great job - Thanks VISTA!

I WANT TO KNOW WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

I WANT TO KNOW WHY BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE!!!!!

“Stacey, only people who are mad write in bold letting that is capitalized.”  Well, guess what....I am not only mad...I am pissed!  I want an answer and not the basic answers of "That's life, things happen, God has a plan, and all that happy jazz."  Today that is not good enough for me! When I went through cancer treatments 18 years ago, I feel that I had an advantage I knew what my cure was. But what if your doctor told you there is no cure.  My philo on that one....BULL!! My illness, I was told that there was nothing more they could do. Well guess what - here I am 18 years later. There is a power in us all. Don't get me wrong, conventional medicine also helped out, but for me, there was something special inside me almost like a peaceful guidance to keep my emotional adrenalin at bay. I incorporated a positive power of thinking and there were so many prayers out there from friends and family.  Now I am sure you asking, "Where are you going with all of this ranting and anger?"

Two nights ago my husband and I learned that a very dear family member is facing, what soon could be, the fight of his life. We were in total disbelief. "HOW COULD IT BE!? AND WHY HIM!?" He was told that he has Lou Gehrig’s disease and/or is symptomatic that follows the guidelines of this terrible illness.  As soon as the shock wore off, I went into fight mode. I don't know why, but something in me says there is a window of opportunity that will lead to his recovery, but what - that I don't know yet and the storm of crazy dreams has once again begun. As much as I got upset with the weird dreams and strong intuitional feelings all of my life, it’s been rather quiet in my mind for the last year, however since this bit of information had been brought to my attention well let’s just say, I'm glad they are back. I know I'm supposed to help and have the ability to help, but I don't have all the answers yet and those of you who know me, when I want an honest answer and know there is one, but is not offered to me....I get very very temperamental. Yeah, temperamental - that's a good word for it. Mild in description, but good, as crazed woman on a mission would freak some people out. (Smile).

My heart tells me he will recover, but when I see him I’ll know more and that more, I hope, will be the peace of knowing he’ll be the one that finds a cure. He is a Seabee and Seabee’s FIGHT! We also stand by each other and have a “Can Do” spirit. He was in Desert Shield and Desert Storm, if he can battle that – HE CAN BATTLE ANYTHING! I am asking for your prayers that he too will be blessed with a miracle. I have also asked my guardian angel “Rose” to give him the same strength she gave me and that he WILL see his daughter graduate and get married! “A guardian angel Stacey, get real. There is no such thing.”  Oh my, do you really believe that? Well I am a LIVING proof that sometimes you have to be able to BELIEVE in a power that you can’t see. It worked for me and a friend of ours out west who was diagnosed with breast cancer. 18 years later, and she also relapsed half way through this time frame….SHE IS STILL HERE TOO!!!!

So here we go again. Last time I questioned the possibilities of a higher power, something happened and I had the shock of my life. Here is the sign I got and I will never question the big guy again.

One night I woke, and felt as thought someone was watching me. I got up, and tried to walk through the flickering light of a television station that had gone off the air. Our bathroom is on an angle from our room. I decided to leave the door open as everyone was asleep. I frozen when I looked into my room and saw him. Do you see him in these photographs? Tell me what do you see? I took one photo with the lights on to proved this photo is not doctored in anyway. It is only a quilt on my bed. See photos below.

With the bedroom light on.

when the light was off, the area at the end of my bed seemed to have a light glow to it.
DO YOU SEE HIM????

When the snow of the tv station was light, this is what I captured.
 I took a lot of pictures as the image stayed there as long as I sat there.

“God, it’s me again. You’ve proven to me that there is hope and miracles do happen in this world. Show me that it is still there. Please bless our friend and his family during this time of illness and bestow upon them all of your strength, power, and guidance to see them through. Let them know that they are loved by many that they are important to those around them and they will prevail!”

Life without Music = Depression (LET THE MUSIC PLAY)

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