T-Minus 7 days and counting
Here I sit, Thursday March 15, 2012. My emotions are like a kid waiting for Christmas to arrive. I wonder about the unknown. Honestly - I am scared to death...shhhh don't tell anyone. My calendar says 7 more days until possibly another dream will come true - But will it? I wonder. 22 years I've waited, could this really happen? The day I began to write, I wanted my words to someday find their way to the silver screen or heck, LMN (Lifetime Movie Network) is fine with me. I don't know where this came from as I was not the writing type. If anything I was very quiet, shy, yes shy, and never had any big dreams to undertake something until the night that I dreamed of the Military man in the red van. When I found that military man and his red van, my life changed forever. I can only hope that he truly knows that all that I do, I do with him in my heart and soul. I try to express this to him, but my words never come out as breathtaking as they look in a Hallmark card or what you hear in a movie that is a love story. Then to think it was 20 years ago on March 24, that my husband and I decided to get married and set a date for May 6th, 1992, and now it is also the date of my meeting to pitch my story next week. Talk about under pressure (Isn't that a song sung by Queen?)....look out she's gonna blow! Ha Ha. But seriously, Having my story chosen to become a movie - that would be one heck of an anniversary gift. Don’t Cha think so?
There is no question that I am under some big time stress. I keep myself in check and keep telling myself say grounded, keep your head out of the clouds, and wear your lead balloon. Being that it was 20 years ago this time, I can’t help but reflect on how my husband and I got here. I found myself reminiscing while waiting in line today at the MVA, I even thought about what would have been if he had not chosen to marry me. How foolish I must have looked, when I started tearing up and had to catch my breath, while standing in line. So I decided to tell people, who asked if I was ok, "I forgot my two forms of ID." Then I smiled and laughed and said, "I'm kidding, I've got allergy eyes." They all laughed. I know I will have to take my own advice – but will I? I’ll let you know soon enough. I just can’t believe that this moment will happen in 7 days and I need to take this all one day at a time. There is no need to panic…yet. I finally got myself an iPod shuffle to listen to my music to keep me calm all day long. It's funny, wearing this around the house to do house work and laundry, I feel like I am cleaning to my own personal soundtrack. I can see it now, "Stacey - The Movie" OMG! NOT! Ha Ha. I couldn’t help but laugh as I was trying to get rid of stink bugs; I need the song - Another One Bites the Dust. Smile.
Basically, with all this wonder, worry and anticipation of what lies ahead for my writing career, I haven’t been the greatest housewife. I’m a little behind with staying on task and I know that the kitchen floor is screaming for a scrub down. So, this blog will have to be short today. I must get things done and stop falling into the daydreams and what if’s, and can only hope next weeks outcome it is what I’ve always dreamed of for myself and my family. I hope that whatever happens will be as glorious as the day when I found my military man. I would love to be able to stand before him and say; here is the deed to your family farm and that his 20 year dream will finally come true - We can go home now and live happily ever after. But if this isn’t the right time for dreams to become a reality, I won’t stop until it is.
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