Passion and Desire

Ever had a strong passion or a strong desire for something? I mean, you want it so badly it made you do dumb things? Would you do just about anything to obtain and satisfy that want, that need, that - I got to have it in your life, kinda feeling? Yes we have all said these things, and at times, we have all been there one time or another in our lives.  So OK, what if this need was to have money, a career, love, or maybe just the reassurance that you are needed in this big thing called life. For whatever the reason may be, everyone has a desire for something. Some desires are simplistic - "Boy I would love a piece of that chocolate cake, but I am on a diet". Well that may not always be simplistic if your a chocoholic. (Smile) Other desires can be dangerous, "Man I would like to get to know that pretty girl in the room or that great looking guy" and you find out their married. Whoops, stay away from that one.  Then there is the big stuff, Fame and Fortune.  I know, your probably saying, hey Stacey, you forgot to mention this and that.  That is what is unique about all of this. Everyone is an individual and we all have our own thoughts and opinions. These were my thoughts when I ventured into something new and exciting to me.

Today, I met passion and desire mixed with reality, head on. It scared the crap out of me, yet what gave me strength to see it through...my family. I have a deep seeded passion for writing and they are just finding this out. I love to write the true stories, but I will be the first to admit, I'm liking the world of Fiction more and more. Today I went into a studio to discuss plans to begin recording my stories and add musical accompaniment for added effect, my motto, "Dare to be Different". My desire has always been to have my stories become both LMN two hour specials and/or movies for the silver screen.  To become successful in either one of these endeavors, it will take devotion and commitment, and could cause a strain on my family.  I know it will take lots of devotion as I do not think I'll be lucky enough to have someone discover me in a Grocery Store or Gas Station. To look at me, nobody is going to say...hey you look like you have a head full of stories and characters that are dying to get onto paper and out for the world to see and read.  I tell people I am a jack of all trades and a master of none, but have the passion and desire to learn things to the best of my ability so I can say I mastered it.

So where am I going with all talk. I am finally going to say it without fear, I want to produce movies and write screen plays, that is my passion. (Appropriate movies, a love story, a horror story, a mystery, haha... get your heads out of the gutter). My desire to do all of this is not for me, but for - My family, I love them and like any Mom would want, I want to give my family security in a world of uncertainties.  So I found myself at a crossroad, worried, could I balance the passion, desire without hurting my unconditional love for my family.  I sat and pondered this question to myself and I can honestly say, Yes, as long as I have the support of my Three guys, The four of us will prevail and some day, we will be at our own red carpet premier of...(Haha thought I would tell you hua?, Nope can't tell you which book or my dreams won't come true)